Dreams

Last night I kept having these awful dreams about hubs.

Not anything to have to do with his deployment, but he 

was home, we were living our normal life. It all felt so

real. I was pregnant, a little further along than I am now,

and I had just found out that he cheated on me, again...

(It's not secret what happened before)....

Yes, I woke up crying & I was tossing and turning.

But that fact that he just didn't care killed me, again.

And here I was pregnant with his baby.

The kicker though, I woke up probably 3 

different times and ALL 3 times I would go

right back to that dream, it just kept continuing

every time and it didn't get much better any time.

I finally woke up around 730am and stayed up 

because I couldn't deal with that again. But now

I have this horrible gut wrenching feeling that

maybe it was trying to tell me something.

How often do dreams just continue on like that?

The last thing I want to do is bring it up to hubs

though, because the whole topic is touch and go

because I tend to make it worse ( I think I have

every right though). But I still can't shake that

bad feeling and its only10:50am...