Dreams

Last night I kept having these awful dreams about hubs.

Not anything to have to do with his deployment, but he 

was home, we were living our normal life. It all felt so

real. I was pregnant, a little further along than I am now,

and I had just found out that he cheated on me, again...

(It's not secret what happened before)....

Yes, I woke up crying & I was tossing and turning.

But that fact that he just didn't care killed me, again.

And here I was pregnant with his baby.

The kicker though, I woke up probably 3 

different times and ALL 3 times I would go

right back to that dream, it just kept continuing

every time and it didn't get much better any time.

I finally woke up around 730am and stayed up 

because I couldn't deal with that again. But now

I have this horrible gut wrenching feeling that

maybe it was trying to tell me something.

How often do dreams just continue on like that?

The last thing I want to do is bring it up to hubs

though, because the whole topic is touch and go

because I tend to make it worse ( I think I have

every right though). But I still can't shake that

bad feeling and its only10:50am...

Song Link-Up

So things have slowly been getting better, day by day. Thank goodness..I am finally allowed to have

a life again, well sort of. Light activity is what I'm allowed to do...better than nothing though...

And baby is doing good & healthy!! That's the most important thing!

Hubs is doing good, although currently sick. I get to see him soon enough. I'm beyond excited because

this will be the last little bit of time I will get with him before he leaves for good, boo.

The planning and organizing for his party is in full affect. Were having it Labor Day weekend, I just hope

people actually come because we have put a lot of work and effort into it. And like hubs said,

If people can't take away one holiday to come and say "see you later" to my hubs who is going

off to fight a war, then they are not really real friends or family anyways.

That's all for now...

Except for my song link-up

My song this week is Toby Keith's American Soldier.

Cliche, I know. But hubs and I went and saw Eric Church & Toby Keith in concert

a few weeks back. When he performed this song, I cried, because my husband is going off to fight

this war soon enough. He will not be here to see our son or daughter be born or a lot of the first that

come with a baby. And this was the last "outing" we will have until he comes home safe and sound to us!

So enjoy!

Bed Rest Day 3

Its day 3 of bed rest. I am already going crazy. I am not one to just sit around and do absolutely nothing for long. I am a busy body, people tell me that all the time. I have to be doing something, anything at all times. So to just lay here and do NOTHING is killing me. The only things I am allowed to do on my own is a.) go to the restroom and b.) get a snack or a drink. Notice I said snack. My doctor specifically told me I am not allowed to cook for myself or anything because I am only allowed to lift things with a 2lb or less weight. Talk about ridiculous. But I know that it is all worth it in the end. I just have to keep telling myself that before I go crazy.

So, do any of you wonderful ladies have any ideas on what I can do to keep me occupied? That requires me to just lay in my bed? Any options are great at this point, lol.

While surfing my blog followers, I came across a post that Life Is The Messy Bits did about a book called "How to love me". It caught my attention. She actually purchased two of the books and gave one to her hubby to fill out and then they are going to swap books before he deploys. This is such an excellent idea. It gives you the chance to learn things about your spouse that you may have never asked the question before. I am purchasing two copies today for my hubs and me. I think it will be fun to do this, especially with the deployment coming SO soon. Let's just hope the hubs plays along too.

Speaking of the hubs. He is doing good. He plays the Army role really well. He enjoys it. The way he talks about everything he gets to do or had done for the day, the enthusiasm in his voice is great. As much as I would rather have him home and as much as he would like to be home through all of this, he is doing an excellent job and I am so proud of him. I can definitely see him playing the Army role for a long time to come and I am perfectly okay with it. He enjoys it, it makes him happy, so ultimately it makes me happy. He didn't have the passion with his civilian job like he does with playing the Army lifestyle. But only time will tell.

Best news of it all, he gets to have his cell phone still. So that means like 3-4 phone calls a day for me :) :)

I kind of feel bad for him though, because he is away and he knows I am not happy. He knows this bed rest ordeal is driving me crazy and there is nothing he can do to make it better. But the end result is so much greater than not being able to work for a couple of weeks (as of right now), and not being able to do stuff with my friends or family. I actually had to skip out on a "girls night in" last night because I am not supposed to be mobile and active. Talk about a bummer...

Big Exciting News!

So I know it has been forever since I have posted on here. Life has been hectic and it seems to just be getting worse. So for the big exciting news...were having a baby! Yes, a baby! 

I took 5 of these bad boys and doctor confirmed number 6 because I didn't believe the first one I took, haha. After the initial shock and awe of it all wore off were both pretty excited. We were not planning on this happening at all, so let me give you a piece of advice and don't rely 100% on birth control because I took it everyday and well...hello baby.

I have been living at the doctors, the hospital and work, literally.  The hubs is currently out of state doing some more training for his deployment quickly approaching. I get 13 more days with him at the beginning of September and then he will be gone for good until his mid tour leave happens. I can't disclose where he is at or where he is going, because you ladies all know why, but it sucks. It sucks so bad, especially with everything that has been happening the past couple of days.

I was in Giant Eagle (a grocery store) the other night and i literally thought I peed my pants. I was laughing at myself actually. So I rush home thinking "oh goodness I gotta change my pants", here to find out I didn't pee my pants. It was blood gushing out of me. Scariest moment of my life. I didn't want to wait for someone to come and get me so I drove myself to the hospital. The doctors couldn't determine why or where I was bleeding from, but they said my blood count was good and the baby still had a good heart beat.

So I am asking you for your prayers, prayers for me and baby, that everything will be okay. I am currently on bed rest until further notice. The heaviest thing I am allowed to lift is my cell phone. It is killing me because I hate having people help me or to even rely on other people, but I as much as I am hating this, I am doing what I have to do to protect my baby. So please, say a prayer for me, for our baby, and for my husband because he feels so helpless because there is no way he can come home right now. Keep us in your prayers that everything is okay, and that baby makes it through all of this. Its scary enough with everything happening, but its even more scarier not being able to have my husband home with me, so I really need your guys support.