Dear Little Baby,

I know you are fully enjoying giving mom these little scares, as I have spent more times in the hospital than I can probably count on two hands anymore, including our little trip last night. But you are still safe and sound where you belong for another 5-8 weeks. Giving Daddy heart attacks doesn't help any either, lol.

You are loved so much already and I can't wait to meet you. Daddy is beyond excited to meet you. I can already see it now, how much "trouble" you two will get in together. Although Daddy won't be here for half of your first year of life, because he is doing his job and I hope one day you are just as proud of him as Mommy is. And I can't promise you he won't have to leave again in a couple more years, but know that you will never have to play the "man of the house" if or when Daddy does leave again. Your job will always be, to be the little wild crazy boy I know you will be. Sure I will probably be pulling my hair out at times, but it will be worth every minute of it.

So do Mommy a favor and calm down just a tad for a couple more weeks. We need you to be 100% okay and ready before you decide to come out and join the world. I love you so much and I will see you soon!

Big Exciting News!

So I know it has been forever since I have posted on here. Life has been hectic and it seems to just be getting worse. So for the big exciting news...were having a baby! Yes, a baby! 

I took 5 of these bad boys and doctor confirmed number 6 because I didn't believe the first one I took, haha. After the initial shock and awe of it all wore off were both pretty excited. We were not planning on this happening at all, so let me give you a piece of advice and don't rely 100% on birth control because I took it everyday and well...hello baby.

I have been living at the doctors, the hospital and work, literally.  The hubs is currently out of state doing some more training for his deployment quickly approaching. I get 13 more days with him at the beginning of September and then he will be gone for good until his mid tour leave happens. I can't disclose where he is at or where he is going, because you ladies all know why, but it sucks. It sucks so bad, especially with everything that has been happening the past couple of days.

I was in Giant Eagle (a grocery store) the other night and i literally thought I peed my pants. I was laughing at myself actually. So I rush home thinking "oh goodness I gotta change my pants", here to find out I didn't pee my pants. It was blood gushing out of me. Scariest moment of my life. I didn't want to wait for someone to come and get me so I drove myself to the hospital. The doctors couldn't determine why or where I was bleeding from, but they said my blood count was good and the baby still had a good heart beat.

So I am asking you for your prayers, prayers for me and baby, that everything will be okay. I am currently on bed rest until further notice. The heaviest thing I am allowed to lift is my cell phone. It is killing me because I hate having people help me or to even rely on other people, but I as much as I am hating this, I am doing what I have to do to protect my baby. So please, say a prayer for me, for our baby, and for my husband because he feels so helpless because there is no way he can come home right now. Keep us in your prayers that everything is okay, and that baby makes it through all of this. Its scary enough with everything happening, but its even more scarier not being able to have my husband home with me, so I really need your guys support.

Crazy Saturday Night

So this past Saturday I went out with my best friend to the Valley. We ended up meeting up with our friends Brittany and Lauren and also our new friend Amy. Our other friend Emil was supposed to have people over at his house that same night too, well turns out he ended up coming to the Valley with his friend Shane. We had a good night all night, no drama. Just had a nice chill night with my friends. After the bars closed, we ended up going back to Emil's house for a few. Thats when the night got ugly...

I was talking to Jenner and my friend Kayla and all I remember is Shane saying something to me from across the room and then he came over, picked me up over his shoulders, and all I remember is laying on the floor. Apparently he had dropped me, but he didn't just drop me, he dropped me hard into a corner of a wall, made me black out for a few minutes.

I have a battle mark on the back of my neck that I hope doesn't scar. And I have a pinched nerve and my spine is bruised up pretty bad. Lucky lucky me. I didn't go to the hospital until Monday night, and the doctors questioned why I waited so long to come in. Umm hello, because I hate hospitals and had hoped it wouldn't get any worse, but it wasn't lookin good. Now I have these God awful headaches because of that pinched nerve. The worst thing is, I guess their is nothing I can do except ice it and put a heat pad on it every hour.

Boyfriend kept me company while I was in the hospital since he couldn't physically be here :) so that made things a little easier. But I have to be 100% by 10 days because my mannn will be home on leave, so lets hope for the best!!!