Big Exciting News!

So I know it has been forever since I have posted on here. Life has been hectic and it seems to just be getting worse. So for the big exciting news...were having a baby! Yes, a baby! 

I took 5 of these bad boys and doctor confirmed number 6 because I didn't believe the first one I took, haha. After the initial shock and awe of it all wore off were both pretty excited. We were not planning on this happening at all, so let me give you a piece of advice and don't rely 100% on birth control because I took it everyday and well...hello baby.

I have been living at the doctors, the hospital and work, literally.  The hubs is currently out of state doing some more training for his deployment quickly approaching. I get 13 more days with him at the beginning of September and then he will be gone for good until his mid tour leave happens. I can't disclose where he is at or where he is going, because you ladies all know why, but it sucks. It sucks so bad, especially with everything that has been happening the past couple of days.

I was in Giant Eagle (a grocery store) the other night and i literally thought I peed my pants. I was laughing at myself actually. So I rush home thinking "oh goodness I gotta change my pants", here to find out I didn't pee my pants. It was blood gushing out of me. Scariest moment of my life. I didn't want to wait for someone to come and get me so I drove myself to the hospital. The doctors couldn't determine why or where I was bleeding from, but they said my blood count was good and the baby still had a good heart beat.

So I am asking you for your prayers, prayers for me and baby, that everything will be okay. I am currently on bed rest until further notice. The heaviest thing I am allowed to lift is my cell phone. It is killing me because I hate having people help me or to even rely on other people, but I as much as I am hating this, I am doing what I have to do to protect my baby. So please, say a prayer for me, for our baby, and for my husband because he feels so helpless because there is no way he can come home right now. Keep us in your prayers that everything is okay, and that baby makes it through all of this. Its scary enough with everything happening, but its even more scarier not being able to have my husband home with me, so I really need your guys support.

Valentine's Stress

So yesterday was Valentine's Day. I was not a happy person at all. Realistically I have a Valentine everyday of my life, except he was in southern Ohio for work & still is. I was upset and mad that he wasn't here, that he chose to go down this week, when he maybe could of postponed it. I have always celebrated Valentine's Day, ever since I was little, so I partially blame my mom and dad for being so mad yesterday. When I was younger, my dad would cook us breakfast and dinner and we always got candy and flowers. It was nothing big, but I loved it. I'm not upset that I didn't get a present or anything, because let's be honest, it is kind of a made up holiday. All I wanted was to spend the day with him, make some food together and just have us time. Looking back now, I realize I kind of got more upset then I should have. But that is what I do, every time! It's a little ridiculous, I realize that now, even though its too late. By me starting that "fight" though, some bigger issues got brought to light. We have been growing more apart then close lately, which kills me because this is our prime, this is when we should be head over heels happy and were not. But I do believe it can and will be fixed. I absolutely love that man with every bit of love I have to give, he is amazing in every way possible. I think between all the stress of moving away from everyone we know, him starting a new job & working ALL the time & me starting a new school and finding a new job, it has just taken a toll on us, physically and emotionally. But he is my heart, my best friend and the only person I have to rely on for anything anymore. I refuse to let that go, so with that being said I will fight for my man, for the love of my life....