Bed Rest to No Bed Rest

Today has been an absolute roller coaster. It all started at 8:15am,

I went for baby boys 20 week check up. Now, let me give you a little

back history first. I see my normal OB and then I also see a high risk

doctor. Well, my high risk doctor has had me off work for about

a month and a half, I just went back to work last Monday, but

on extended circumstances.

So this morning, I start telling my doctor about this pain that I have

down in my girl area's, but only on the left side, weird huh? I 

thought so too. High risk doctor told me my potassium was low,

asked my normal doc this morning, he basically told me High Risk

doctor was a moron, that more than likely when I had the cerclage 

done, he hit a nerve. Awesome right? And there is nothing I can 

do about it until 35 weeks when its time for the cerclage to come

out.

He then proceeds to tell me that I need to be resting and not doing

much, I then proceed to tell him that I am back to work. He basically

goes all crazy again because my other doctor sent me back to work

without consulting with him first. Immediately takes me back out 

of work. And then tells me have a nice day, see you in two weeks.

Sure, I left like okay. But 20 minutes after I got home, panic set in.

Hubs was busy doing training so I couldn't talk to him right away.

Everyone in my family is obviously biased, so that was no help.

I know my body and what I can and can't handle, I only work

four hours a day right now and they give me a chair. I freaked

out because well, yeah hubs is making good money, but I still

need to be making something too.

I eventually got to talk to hubs, he told me to do what I feel is 

right for baby and me, as far as continuing to work. I 

eventually called my doctor back, talked to him some more.

He agreed with certain restrictions, that my job is okay with,

thank goodness, I can continue to work only if I am in my 

chair at almost all times...

So, that was my day.

Crazyness.

With that being said, I officially move in 2 days & I will have no

internet or cable until further notice. Unless I can figure out

how to steal the internet from my phone, which I know is possible.

Just have to figure out how.

And, one more thing? Does anyone sell scentsy or any other

work from home type of businesses. I'm trying to come

up with something I can do IF I get taken off work all

together again or just to add some more cash flow, 

since I'm not making quite half of what I normally make.

Let me know :)

Exhausted

So I had surgery on Tuesday,

to essentially "save the baby".

It has been exhausting, mentally and physically.

I don't know how people can be on bed rest for months and months.

I for one am fed up with it.

I consider myself pretty independent.

I hate having to rely on other people for stupid petty things,

like getting me a glass of water or making me food.

Yes, I am not allowed to do any of the above,

along with many other things.

Put that and actually being in physical pain together,

BAD combination.

I am waiting for the physical pain to go away.

So that I can at least sit in a chair and not be in pain,

or even walk around for longer than 10 minutes

without having to rest for 2 hours after those 10 minutes.

It is frustrating. It is even more frustrating having my husband gone.

Having him be so busy that I don't get to talk to him until

10 at night sometimes.

I know I know, it comes with the territory.

But right now, I am fed up and sick of it.

I didn't sign up to be pregnant alone, let alone

have to go through all of these god awful issues alone, too.

Having to be in the hospital literally all day.

Not being able to feel my legs for a good portion of that day.

The physical pain after. God, I hope it gets better.

I can't do this for 7 more months, especially alone.

I don't mean to go on and on. I'm just frustrated.

I am stuck in bed 24/7 with no real connection to the world.

No real connection to my husband.

I get irritated so easily.

All I want to do is be able to go outside, to come and go

as I please again.

Please let this pregnancy get easier, pleaseee!

Bed Rest Day 3

Its day 3 of bed rest. I am already going crazy. I am not one to just sit around and do absolutely nothing for long. I am a busy body, people tell me that all the time. I have to be doing something, anything at all times. So to just lay here and do NOTHING is killing me. The only things I am allowed to do on my own is a.) go to the restroom and b.) get a snack or a drink. Notice I said snack. My doctor specifically told me I am not allowed to cook for myself or anything because I am only allowed to lift things with a 2lb or less weight. Talk about ridiculous. But I know that it is all worth it in the end. I just have to keep telling myself that before I go crazy.

So, do any of you wonderful ladies have any ideas on what I can do to keep me occupied? That requires me to just lay in my bed? Any options are great at this point, lol.

While surfing my blog followers, I came across a post that Life Is The Messy Bits did about a book called "How to love me". It caught my attention. She actually purchased two of the books and gave one to her hubby to fill out and then they are going to swap books before he deploys. This is such an excellent idea. It gives you the chance to learn things about your spouse that you may have never asked the question before. I am purchasing two copies today for my hubs and me. I think it will be fun to do this, especially with the deployment coming SO soon. Let's just hope the hubs plays along too.

Speaking of the hubs. He is doing good. He plays the Army role really well. He enjoys it. The way he talks about everything he gets to do or had done for the day, the enthusiasm in his voice is great. As much as I would rather have him home and as much as he would like to be home through all of this, he is doing an excellent job and I am so proud of him. I can definitely see him playing the Army role for a long time to come and I am perfectly okay with it. He enjoys it, it makes him happy, so ultimately it makes me happy. He didn't have the passion with his civilian job like he does with playing the Army lifestyle. But only time will tell.

Best news of it all, he gets to have his cell phone still. So that means like 3-4 phone calls a day for me :) :)

I kind of feel bad for him though, because he is away and he knows I am not happy. He knows this bed rest ordeal is driving me crazy and there is nothing he can do to make it better. But the end result is so much greater than not being able to work for a couple of weeks (as of right now), and not being able to do stuff with my friends or family. I actually had to skip out on a "girls night in" last night because I am not supposed to be mobile and active. Talk about a bummer...