Exhausted

So I had surgery on Tuesday,

to essentially "save the baby".

It has been exhausting, mentally and physically.

I don't know how people can be on bed rest for months and months.

I for one am fed up with it.

I consider myself pretty independent.

I hate having to rely on other people for stupid petty things,

like getting me a glass of water or making me food.

Yes, I am not allowed to do any of the above,

along with many other things.

Put that and actually being in physical pain together,

BAD combination.

I am waiting for the physical pain to go away.

So that I can at least sit in a chair and not be in pain,

or even walk around for longer than 10 minutes

without having to rest for 2 hours after those 10 minutes.

It is frustrating. It is even more frustrating having my husband gone.

Having him be so busy that I don't get to talk to him until

10 at night sometimes.

I know I know, it comes with the territory.

But right now, I am fed up and sick of it.

I didn't sign up to be pregnant alone, let alone

have to go through all of these god awful issues alone, too.

Having to be in the hospital literally all day.

Not being able to feel my legs for a good portion of that day.

The physical pain after. God, I hope it gets better.

I can't do this for 7 more months, especially alone.

I don't mean to go on and on. I'm just frustrated.

I am stuck in bed 24/7 with no real connection to the world.

No real connection to my husband.

I get irritated so easily.

All I want to do is be able to go outside, to come and go

as I please again.

Please let this pregnancy get easier, pleaseee!

Weekend Recap

So Thursday afternoon I learned how to play pitty pat, kind of. It was interesting, they kept trying to get me to play with my dollars. Not happening though. I won one hand, so I would of lost like 10 bucks. Good thing I didn't play with money, I would of not been happy. Then around 4:50ish, I left to drive to Columbus. Yes, Columbus. This is my blog, I don't need to hide stuff. I went to see Josh before he left for Arkansas for a month. If you don't like it, tough. I always manage to leave when traffic is heavy, why I don't know, doesn't make much sense. But I finally got there around 7 and Josh was passed out. I woke him up and we went and got some Raising Cane's, which is amazinggg! Came back home, watched a movie and just hung out. It was nice.

Friday was a busy day. We went shopping and got pedicures. Yes, Josh got a pedicure! haha, I love it. We got some food, actually ate breakfast, lunch and dinner. Neither one of us have done that in a while. I helped him pack, ok well not really, lol. Then we just hung out for a little while and went to sleep. Then Saturday morning he left for Arkansas :( Even though were not dating, saying goodbyes still suck. Its only a month long, but still. He's been a part of my life for so long, I'm not a fan of goodbyes. Maybe we can meet up when I am in Oklahoma, since we'll only be a state apart, hint hint ;) haha. We would be 6 hours away from each other, according to google maps time, which means probably 4 or 5.

Saturday night I started my job. I'm training to be a server. Which is kind of dumb for me to start because I only get to work yesterday and today, then im off until 20 June I believe, because of surgery. Which is why I am headed to Oklahoma. I can't work, so why not enjoy these 2 weeks before reality starts and I work all the time. Oh, and in case you were wondering, surgery is on Tuesday, this Tuesday 7 June. Not excited. Kind of really scared. The one person I wish was there, can't be there. Even if he wasn't in Arkansas, he probably still wouldn't be there. Just sucks.

But I absolutely adore him. Through all the bad and all the good. I love him. I will always love him.