Quick Update

Hubs is home for R&R, thank God!

Still NO baby though!

I have surpassed what my doctors expected me to go to..

good for baby I guess, but we are full-term now.

Bad for hubs because he has already been home 6 days

and still no baby. We are seriously doing everything possible

that we know of to get him out. Any suggestions, send them my

way. We need all the help we can at this point.

There are no words about how awful I will feel if we have no

baby before he goes back. And not to mention, I NEED him 

to be here for labor. I got a nice little dose the other night,

but contractions were not consistent enough and I am stuck

at 4 centimeters so they sent us home. And have had nothing since.

I am going crazy. I am done being pregnant.

Pregnancy Rant, Really...

So I am sure I am just being selfish and crazy hormonal from this pregnancy, but my husband is coming home from R&R soon. I feel like he is going to want to just go out and booze with his buddies the majority of the time. I get that he is beer deprived and things are not easy for him over there and just wants to have fun, but lets be honest, we are having a baby. He will either already be here before Josh gets home or really soon after. But I have had NO life for the past 9 months, lost lots of friends because I couldn't booze or go out with them anymore (guess they weren't really friends) and none of that will change anytime soon, if ever again. I am planning on breastfeeding at least for the first 6 months, if not the first year. So my alcohol/friend intake will be very limited still. I know I probably sound selfish, but if you were not going to see your baby for another 6-7 months wouldn't you want to spend as much time with him as possible, not to mention me. We've been married 6 months on the 8th and have never actually been a married couple. I'm sure I am over-reacting and he will be with us the majority of the time. And I'm sure this is just me freaking out because he won't be here for labor probably and well I get to spend the next 6-7 months being a single mother. Yes, I have plenty of people who are willing to help me, but they need to just back off and let me ask for help myself. The more they are pushing me the further I will push them away, they need to realize that. Ughh, I'm sorry for the rant, I am just really frustrated today!

01.01.2012

It is already 2012! Holy Cow! Where did 2011 go to?

I can't say 2011 was horrible because lots of awesome

things happened, like marrying my man, finding out

were having a baby boy, moving back out on my own.

But 2011 did bring a lot of challenging & difficult times,

along with a deployment that has taken my husband away 

since August of 2011.

I am looking forward to 2012. I am hoping for lots of

good things. I will have my precious little baby soon,

R&R will be soon, 8 months later - hubs will be home, 

FOR GOOD! We will hopefully be taking a vacation

with our little family & we will get to celebrate baby's

first Halloween and Christmas as a family!

So, yay for 2012!