Monday, February 28, 2011

Military Monday!

Ever have them moments when your spouse or significant other has been gone either for a while or a couple of days & when they come home, they just hold you and kiss you & whisper in your ear that they missed you! I love those moments!

Friday, February 25, 2011


So this post is completely irrelevant to anything, but after reading through my blogger friends, I don't like my page anymore. How do I get the three column backgrounds and the fun fonts & buttons and all that stuff? Ha, I'm usually good with this kind of stuff, but when I try to do it myself it doesn't work. Can anyone help, or even do it for me? :)

And another side note: I want to read a good book. Any recommendations?

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Another Year Older

So today was my 24th birthday. This is the first time since I was a teenager that I have not celebrated my birthday like I usually would have. I have always went out to eat and partied with all my friends, that was how we celebrated all of our birthdays. But this year, this year was different. None of my friends are here with me, so it was just me and my love to celebrate together & I am perfectly okay with that, especially since he won't be around for my birthday next year. But those plans quickly changed & I am again, okay with that too...

I worked Wednesday night. When I went on break I texted him, he was at the mall with Leah (a girl he works with), she was helping him shop for me. He called me at work a little bit later and told me there had been an accident with people from his company and he was going back to the shop because he might be leaving town tonight to help with the accident. I ended up driving to his shop when I got off at 9 because he said he had presents for me and he didn't know if he would see me today. When I got to the shop, Leah, Pup & babe were all there waiting to hear about the accident and what was going on. I stayed and talked for a while & opened my presents. And Leah says she didn't have anything to do with what he got me, she was just moral support I guess..haha. But he did SO good! This is what I got -

I couldn't be anymore happy with the presents he got me, he actually got me so much more then I was expecting. He ended up coming home though, only to leave at 4am to drive to the Ohio/West Virginia boarder for work. I didn't hear him leave like I normally do, I was snoozin good. All in all though my day was very uneventful. I went to school this morning, came home & did two loads of laundry and then went into work. Although my work friends did buy me a birthday cake, which made me smile because I haven't worked there very long. This birthday was the first time since I have been working that I have worked on my birthday. Does that make me an actual grown up now? lol. And for dinner I had a can of Dora the Explorer Spaghettio's...haha! Such a great ending to my day! & Happy Birthday to MEEE!! :)

Rockin my new bling! ;)

Music Link Up

So Goodnight Moon is doing a music link up of what your song of the moment is. Here is mine...

With the news of babe's deployment, I can't help but listen to this song because the chorus "I will stand by you, I will help you through...." is so close to my heart right now...Enjoy!!

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Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Wordless Wednesday - The Beautiful Jamaican Waters

Jamaica has my heart!

Ready or Not, Here We Go!

So as you all know, a deployment was always a possibility for boyfriend. At first, it was a high chance he would get deployed and then it became a low chance. Well, news came Friday that he IS going. When he called me I was at home cleaning the house and he was at work. The first words out of his mouth were, "Are you sitting down?" It hit me like a ton of bricks all at once because I was not expecting this, as far as we both knew he had got denied. Well turns out this deployment is now involuntary, which makes no sense because they told him no when he tried to volunteer but yet make him go...

At first he was told approx 2.5 its looking like the end of July. Nothing will really be set until the actual orders come in, because if its one thing I know, nothing is ever certain in the military world. My heart aches though because I feel like we have just got the chance to really live our lives and now he has to leave. I knew what I was signing up for when this relationship started, I knew a deployment would happen, not maybe happen, I knew it would happen, just didn't think it would be so soon. But I promised him I would stand by his side and support him, be his number one fan and that is exactly what I am going to do.

This is where were at right now though, he thinks I should move back home. My family and friends are all back home, which will be my support system through this upcoming deployment. And he doesn't want me to "stray", I say that like that because I know he trust me, at least I hope, but a year is a long time to live alone in a city where you don't know anyone. So I completely understand his reasonings for thinking it is best that I move back home, but is it really the smartest thing to do? Moving back home means, having to transfer schools...yet again, moving my stuff back there, hopefully getting my old job back. There is so much involved with moving back home...but if I stay down here, I'll be living alone, he won't be a part of my day to day life. Which I am used to in a way, because he is gone quite a bit for work as it is. But I will be able to continue my education, which I could do at home, don't get me wrong, but not all of my credits transfered, so what if I do move back home and then come back in a year and all my hardwork doesn't transfer back. Then its basically all for nothing. But then expenses come into play. Boyfriend pays for everything right now, rent, electric, cable/internet & the majority of the food. He is going to continue to pay the rent whether I stay or not because he has to have a place to come back too...but the other bills? If I stay down here, will I have to start paying for those somehow? So there it is...I need feeback, I need opinions, should I stay down here and continue to go to school and work or move back home?

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Valentine's Stress

So yesterday was Valentine's Day. I was not a happy person at all. Realistically I have a Valentine everyday of my life, except he was in southern Ohio for work & still is. I was upset and mad that he wasn't here, that he chose to go down this week, when he maybe could of postponed it. I have always celebrated Valentine's Day, ever since I was little, so I partially blame my mom and dad for being so mad yesterday. When I was younger, my dad would cook us breakfast and dinner and we always got candy and flowers. It was nothing big, but I loved it. I'm not upset that I didn't get a present or anything, because let's be honest, it is kind of a made up holiday. All I wanted was to spend the day with him, make some food together and just have us time. Looking back now, I realize I kind of got more upset then I should have. But that is what I do, every time! It's a little ridiculous, I realize that now, even though its too late. By me starting that "fight" though, some bigger issues got brought to light. We have been growing more apart then close lately, which kills me because this is our prime, this is when we should be head over heels happy and were not. But I do believe it can and will be fixed. I absolutely love that man with every bit of love I have to give, he is amazing in every way possible. I think between all the stress of moving away from everyone we know, him starting a new job & working ALL the time & me starting a new school and finding a new job, it has just taken a toll on us, physically and emotionally. But he is my heart, my best friend and the only person I have to rely on for anything anymore. I refuse to let that go, so with that being said I will fight for my man, for the love of my life....

Sunday, February 13, 2011


I promise I haven't disappeared...just been really busy! I'll update soon, I promise!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Wordless Wednesday

Wordless Wednesday

Crazy Start To My Week

I haven't blogged that last couple of days because there was a lot going on and blogging was not my top priority at the moment. On Sunday, Josh and I actually got to spend the whole day together. It was wonderful. We went and did a little shopping & we both filed our taxes. Then I did a little homework and we had a tv night on the couch. It was nice & very well needed.

Monday, I went to class like normal & Josh went to work like normal. I had just walked in the door and I got a phone call from my friend telling me that someone very near & dear to me, his mother had passed away and that the calling hours were that night. My first question was, "Why am I just finding out about this?" and then I started to ask the questions of what happened and where everything what at. No one at the time knew what had happened, but she was such a tough and brave woman. She had battled cancer and BEAT IT!! She was in remission, so her death caught me completely off guard. I was overwhelmed and upset and I didn't know what to do because I had to work that night. Well I ended up calling into work and got someone to switch with me, thank goodness!

Tuesday, we got the snowstorm from hell. Every school in the area & pretty much the state of Ohio was closed down, except Ohio State. Go figure! So I battle it out and went to class, worst mistake everrr. They didn't have anything salted and the ice was a good inch thick. I was so angry, and of course I slipped and fell, but all I could do was laugh at myself. I laughed when I fell and was laughing when I got up. As mad as I was that I was braving that mess, I could still laugh at myself. When I got home from school, I ended up taking a nap ALL afternoon. I only woke up because babe had called me and the phone was right next to my head. When I called him back, he was super excited and said he was on his way home and for me to get up and get dressed. When I asked why, he said he was coming home to pick me up to go back to his shop and pick up his car. He got a work truck from work, so we had to get his car back home somehow.

The drive down to his shop was hysterical. The truck turned out to be stick shift and babe hasn't driven a stick shift in a WHILE!! LOL. I got jerked around a couple times, but all in all he didn't do TOO bad for just driving stick again for an hour or so. And he is way to excited to have a truck finally. The good old Suby will be parked for a while now, lol. That has been my past couple of days. Now I'm off to work for the rest of the weeek, boo!