Halloween Came and Went...

So lately I have been in these moods where I don't even want to get out of bed. I know it's not healthy at all and I'm working on it. Reality is sinking in and being thrown in my face. My husband is off fighting a war and here I am six months pregnant all alone. I don't think things would be as difficult if I wasn't pregnant. Obviously I am not complaining about him, I'm overly excited for him. Just not excited that I have no friends to help keep me busy because I can't go out and party with them. Halloween has came and gone, one of my favorite holidays. Guess what I did? Absolutely nothing. And everyone who knows what I'm going through and are going through it as well are 2 hours away from me. I know it's not healthy for me and baby...I'm working on it.

Friday Fill-In

1. The best part of October was having my husband home for his 4 day pass

2. The worst part of October was  having to say goodbye all over again

3. For Halloween, I’ll be with family taking my nieces and nephew trick or treating

4. I hope that in November it doesn't snow like a mad man outside. I hate the snow. I need to move

5. Wifey has posted MilSpouse Secret Santa. I  will be participating, hopefully! :)

I give you...

My version of those Halloween cupcakes. Their not as 

good because the frosting I made kind of sucked.

It was really runny until it hardened up on the cupcake.

Gotta find a new one for sure.

But they are for 8 and 9 year old's, so they don't need 

to be perfect. They also made a huge mess of my kitchen..

It's Thursday, again!

So that means, it is time to link up with Goodnight Moon for a good

ol' jam session. In honor of Halloween becoming so close and all

the trick or treats starting today in various parts of where I live,

I thought it would only be fitting to pick this song. I LOVED

this song as a kid, not exactly sure why, but I did.

With that being said, I am off to bake cupcakes for

my niece's Halloween party tomorrow. I am such an

awesome aunt! :)

Here is what I plan on them looking like

Hope they look this good!!

Dreams

Last night I kept having these awful dreams about hubs.

Not anything to have to do with his deployment, but he 

was home, we were living our normal life. It all felt so

real. I was pregnant, a little further along than I am now,

and I had just found out that he cheated on me, again...

(It's not secret what happened before)....

Yes, I woke up crying & I was tossing and turning.

But that fact that he just didn't care killed me, again.

And here I was pregnant with his baby.

The kicker though, I woke up probably 3 

different times and ALL 3 times I would go

right back to that dream, it just kept continuing

every time and it didn't get much better any time.

I finally woke up around 730am and stayed up 

because I couldn't deal with that again. But now

I have this horrible gut wrenching feeling that

maybe it was trying to tell me something.

How often do dreams just continue on like that?

The last thing I want to do is bring it up to hubs

though, because the whole topic is touch and go

because I tend to make it worse ( I think I have

every right though). But I still can't shake that

bad feeling and its only10:50am...

Baby Stuff

So I realize I haven't put any pictures of baby stuff on here,

only Facebook. So I thought I would share some of the

baby items that have been bought FOR us!!

We have gotten really lucky with all the help with

purchasing baby items. These items alone are 

close to a $1,000. This baby has nicer stuff than

hubs and I combined. 

Here are a few photos for viewing. I'll post an

ultrasound picture as soon as I make it "mine", 

so no crazy people try to steal my baby's photos.

What I REALLY want!! But the turn around time for

this girl making them is MONTHS! I understand a

couple of weeks, but not months. Anyone who knows

someone who makes these and can make me one,

I appreciate it!

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Really want the first one, just ACU print!

It's That Wonderful Time of the Year

So it's only the end of October, but who doesn't love

Christmas!! I know I do! With that being said, I am 

browsing my favorite website to create Christmas

cards for 2011, Shutterfly. They have SO many

options to choose from. We did a simple but

very cute Christmas card last year. This year 

I want to do something more creative, with

more photos and some sweet words.

It's really blurry, but that was our Christmas card

last year! This year I really like these..

I am still searching the website to find the perfect one

but I can guarentee I will be purchasing my cards

from here! 

Family Matters

Saturday afternoon I went and watched hubs little niece cheer 

her last football game. A bunch of the family came out. She 

was so cute. I have photos on my phone, but no clue how

to get them on here (anyone can help). All was good, or

so I thought. I got left alone with his grandmother for 

about 10 minutes, normally it wouldn't be a big deal,

except ever since hubs deployment she has been

a basket case.

I completely understand that the deployment is hard

on EVERYONE. I am in no way putting down how

she is dealing with it, I just don't necessarily agree.

She cries ALL the time, but whatever, if it helps her

so be it. Just don't do it around me is all I ask. She

then proceeds to go on and on about, "Oh, I just

really hope he comes home. I couldn't handle 

losing him." Ummm...hello!!! Your talking to his 

WIFE here, do you really think I want to hear this?

I continue to try to be nice and tell her that she can

not think like that or the next year will be miserable.

I couldn't be nice anymore when she proceeded to

tell me that, although our situation is unique and I am 

his wife and carrying his baby but because I haven't

"known" him for as long as her and the rest of his family

that essentially they should take precedence over me,

because she basically raised him and he is "special" to

her. I get that he is her first grandchild, but she has 5 

other one's to focus on now. They have a hard time

accepting the fact that he is not a baby anymore

and that he has a wife and a baby of his own coming.

I think they fail to realize that I will be the first one to

know almost everything. It's just so frustrating.

They have done a lot for us and the baby already

so I don't want to be a bitch, but seriously, where

does the line get drawn? 

Does anyone else have family in-laws that have been

the same way? How have you dealt with them?

Song Link-Up

So, deployment sucks. I miss my husband. I am lonely.

Being pregnant isn't helping any.

Especially a high risk pregnancy.

Okay, I'm done complaining.

Here's my song.

It's not Blake Shelton, but their pretty good too

Hope everyone had a wonderful day!
And thank goodness for Skype!!
Just got to talk and see the hubs, I feel better!

Disciple Photography

These are a few of my favorite photos from a little shoot hubs and I 

did while he was home. My friend Morgan did them for 

FREE! She is amazing. Be sure to check out her other

work.

Disciple Photography

Let me know what you think of them :)

It's been a while...

Hey guys! Sorry I have been MIA for a while. A lot has happened since

the last time I was able to blog. To get you all caught up though, this

is what has been happening.

Mine and hubs first deployment is well under way. He was just 

home this past weekend for his four day pass. It was 

probably the fastest four days of my life thus far. Sadly 

though, I had to share him with A LOT of people.

As unhappy as I was about sharing him, I was just

happy to have him home. Now he is gone, for 

quite some time too. 

As proud of him as I am, it still sucks. I miss him

so much, especially with the baby coming soon

and all of the baby activities taking place soon.

I just want more than anything to have him here, 

but that isn't an option. I need a hobby.

Preferably one that isn't expensive. Or

an easy coping method to deal with everything.

I am now 23 weeks pregnant. I still have 

a ways to go, but time is going FAST!

January will be here before I know it.

We finally picked out a name for baby, after

much debate. And we didn't fully agree until

hubs was seconds away from getting on

the plane to leave us again. Kind of cute,

definitely not something we will forget.

But we plan on keeping the name a 

secret until baby is born since I didn't

want to tell anyone it was a boy from

the beginning but hubs was so excited.

We also got all moved in to our new place.

And we got to set up the baby's bed & dresser

while hubs was home. So that was exciting.

That is all for now. I promise I will be back

to regularly blogging again. I just had to wait

until the internet got hooked up and spent

time with the hubs. Hope everyone

is well. I have some serious catching up to do.

Hopefully if you follow me on twitter,

your not too far behind on me :)