Dear Little Baby,

I know you are fully enjoying giving mom these little scares, as I have spent more times in the hospital than I can probably count on two hands anymore, including our little trip last night. But you are still safe and sound where you belong for another 5-8 weeks. Giving Daddy heart attacks doesn't help any either, lol.

You are loved so much already and I can't wait to meet you. Daddy is beyond excited to meet you. I can already see it now, how much "trouble" you two will get in together. Although Daddy won't be here for half of your first year of life, because he is doing his job and I hope one day you are just as proud of him as Mommy is. And I can't promise you he won't have to leave again in a couple more years, but know that you will never have to play the "man of the house" if or when Daddy does leave again. Your job will always be, to be the little wild crazy boy I know you will be. Sure I will probably be pulling my hair out at times, but it will be worth every minute of it.

So do Mommy a favor and calm down just a tad for a couple more weeks. We need you to be 100% okay and ready before you decide to come out and join the world. I love you so much and I will see you soon!

It's been a while...

Hey guys! Sorry I have been MIA for a while. A lot has happened since

the last time I was able to blog. To get you all caught up though, this

is what has been happening.

Mine and hubs first deployment is well under way. He was just 

home this past weekend for his four day pass. It was 

probably the fastest four days of my life thus far. Sadly 

though, I had to share him with A LOT of people.

As unhappy as I was about sharing him, I was just

happy to have him home. Now he is gone, for 

quite some time too. 

As proud of him as I am, it still sucks. I miss him

so much, especially with the baby coming soon

and all of the baby activities taking place soon.

I just want more than anything to have him here, 

but that isn't an option. I need a hobby.

Preferably one that isn't expensive. Or

an easy coping method to deal with everything.

I am now 23 weeks pregnant. I still have 

a ways to go, but time is going FAST!

January will be here before I know it.

We finally picked out a name for baby, after

much debate. And we didn't fully agree until

hubs was seconds away from getting on

the plane to leave us again. Kind of cute,

definitely not something we will forget.

But we plan on keeping the name a 

secret until baby is born since I didn't

want to tell anyone it was a boy from

the beginning but hubs was so excited.

We also got all moved in to our new place.

And we got to set up the baby's bed & dresser

while hubs was home. So that was exciting.

That is all for now. I promise I will be back

to regularly blogging again. I just had to wait

until the internet got hooked up and spent

time with the hubs. Hope everyone

is well. I have some serious catching up to do.

Hopefully if you follow me on twitter,

your not too far behind on me :)

Happy Mother's Day!

So today is a bittersweet day for me. In a way it is a reminder of everything I have lost, but I am thankful. I am thankful to have TWO little angel babies watching over me today and everyday. My son who was born November 10, 2006 & my little baby B in October 09.

My son was born at 5.5 months. He lived for 3 hours. That was one of the hardest days of my life. But I know I have such an amazing little boy watching over me and smiling down. And little Baby B, we never got to know if it was a boy or girl because I miscarried, but I like to think it was a girl, just because Josh wanted a little boy so bad. I am thankful and blessed to have such two amazing little angels watching over me everyday. And I know when the time is right, I will get to have my own little family and celebrate holidays like today with them.

But, I can't leave a few special people out..

1. My mother. We have our moments, but at the end of the day she is my mother. And I know she loves me. And when I need help she is always there to pick me up and help me, whether she approves or not. She has her own way of being supportive, but I love her no less. She is part of the reason I am as strong as I am today. And I will always love her.
2. My 2 amazing sisters. They keep me sane half of the time. They really are my best friends. And they are amazing mothers to my nieces and nephews. Never thought I would see the day where we would be best friends because we terrorized each other so much when we were little. But I love them & I am so lucky to have them in my life.
3.My best friend. My God-Sister. God, we have been through so much. I have known her since I was like 5. She is the mother to my amazing little god-daughter, Kendra Ann & they are expecting another little baby around Thanksgiving. I am so excited for her and her husband. And I miss my little baby because they live all the way in Oklahoma now, good ol' military.
4. My God-Mother herself. She is such a beautiful person. She has never put up with my shit and she always knows the right thing to say. And her cooking skills are out of this world.

These are just a few of the people who have made such an impact on who I am today. And I just want to wish them and all of you a very Happy Mother's Day. Enjoy today, it is your day!