Thursday, April 28, 2011

my heart cant take this..,,i

well ladies, he did it. the man i love more than life itself broke up with me. not only did he break up with me, he told me to get out of hisss house, last time i checked it was ourr house. he claims he is not in love with me anymore and he doesnt have the desire to fall in love with me again. such a smack to the face. i knew things were stressful because of his job and all the stuff he has to do for the upcoming deployment, but i never thought he would actually give up on us. he was my best friend,, my partner in crime, my love, my heart, my number one fan. and now he is just giving up because, he wants to be single and be on his own, his exact words.

so i had to unenroll out of school. and he is the one who wants me to finish so bad. my parents and sister came yesterday to move me back home. so this is me writing from my old bedroom, the one place i dont want to be. i waited around before i a,
ctually left our home yesterday to try to talk to him one more time, to get him to change his mind. but he never came home until really late. so i not only didnt get to say goodbye, i have no closer. but i dont want closer, i want him. i want to wake up to him everyday from now until forever. i want to m, ake us breakfast on the weekends again

5 comments:

Julie said...

I'm sorry to hear that. Try and keep your head up! In the meantime, indulge on Ben and Jerry's and avoid thinking about him if possible!

Jenn said...

I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through this. I know at the time it does not make sense and that everything seems wrong but remember that while we may never know the reasons there is always a reason.
I know that sounds cliche but it has gotten me through some really hards times.

Jillian said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Especially when you have to un-enroll in school. Keep your dreams and your aspirations, I know you will achieve them on your own. hugs!

Katie said...

I'm so sorry girl. That's crazy you had to unenroll from such a great school too.
I'm here in Columbus which I guess you're not now..but I'm deff here if you need to talk or anything. My boy and I just broke up as well, but I got him to work on things now..you never know what your future holds. <3

Delainey said...

Aww girl!! Breakups are ALWAYS hard. But you will get through it and you will get the closure you need, whether it is a real goodbye or getting him back. Hang in there girl!