Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Slacking..

So I haven't posted anything in a while. A lot has been going on and I am not really sure how to put it down into words. There are good days and bad days. I just hope to have more good then the bad. I recently started my second quarter at Ohio State, its getting better. Last quarter I didn't care for it much, but this quarter I actually am enjoying it. Babe is skeptical, because I changed my major yet again, but I am satisfied with it. I had to do something because he wants me to go back home when he leaves, IF I do go back home, everything I am taking now would be a waste and the same with if I go back to Akron. He is dead set on me going back home, but now that I am here, and I am enjoying Ohio State, I don't want to go back home. Going back home is only going to delay me graduating even longer, which frustrates me. I want to be done just as much as everyone else wants me to be done. But all this going back and forth with not everything transfering back & forth is a waste of my time and money. So why not let me stay down here? When he comes home I should only have about 2 quarters left and I would be graduating, finally. But if I go back home, God only knows when I would graduate because I don't know if anything I am taking now will even matter to Akron.

I talked to my advisor about it and she gave me a list of classes that will for sure transfer from Akron back to Ohio State if I came back, but that list consists of 5 classes. That is one semester. What about the other semester? Do I waste my time and take classes that I know won't transfer back, if I do come back down here? Im just so frustrated and overwhelmed because I want to stay down here. But I can't financially afford to live on my own completely and it sucks. Everytime I try to talk to Babe about it, I feel like he just shuts me out. Like, its his opinion or no opinion. Like I said, completely frustrating. And I want to take summer classes, but if I am just going to get "kicked out" of my home, how is that going to happen. So I am now looking for a new job, a better paying job. I am currently a pharmacy tech, but the pay I get for all the work I do is rediculous. But hopefully I can find a better job, that will let me live on my own if need be...

And of course I talk to my mom and the first words out her of mouth are, "You can't afford to live on your own!" Thank you, for reminding me of what I already know. I swear she can be so unsupportive. And the last thing I want is to be living under her roof again...

3 comments:

Katie said...

I've learned this the hard way, and hopefully you won't have to learn it the hard way, but do what YOU want. Live life for YOURSELF, and those that care will come around to understanding. Do what it is to make yourself happy! Stay at OSU, it's such a great school, especially the more you get into it! Anddd, if you need a friend up here, I live right here too! Haha!!

Anyways, hope you make the best decision for the long run <3

Just a Girl said...

I think you need to do whatever makes you happy. And I just don't see the point in transferring back and forth between schools. Another thing to think about is that most colleges require that you take a certain number of hours at that school. Like, where I went to undergrad 80 hours had to be taken in residence (at that school). So that's something to think about too.

I hope you're able to make the decision that's right for you!

Whitney said...

I agree with Just a Girl... you gotta do whatever makes you happy. Maybe take a chance on the unknown and it will all work out. That's so frustrating about your mom. My mom acts like that at times. You just got to make the decision that you feel is right for you!