Saturday, April 30, 2011

This isnt fair...

he says I did nothing. he says he is the one who changed. he says he doesn't love me anymore. but you know what I call bullshit. you don't just fall out of love with someone, you don't. not so suddenly anyways. i think he just let work and this deployment swallow him whole and he doesn't know how to balance everything out. deep down I know he still loves me and is still in love with me, I know he is, because we had some great times in between all the stressful times. I just want the love of my life back. I want him, all of him, the good,  the bad, the happy, the sad. But he won't talk to me, but yet I did nothing. My heart is broken, it hurts. I need him to fix it.

*Babyy, if by chance you are reading this, I really hope you change your mind. We don't have to do the whole living together thing. But we can do this, we can make it. I love you more than anything in this world. Please don't just quit on us. We've been through too much already to just quit on each other. I love you Joshua and I really really hope you change your mind, soon. I miss you.*

2 comments:

No Model Lady said...

Deployments create such stress and turmoil for a relationship. I am so sorry for you , especially that you uprooted your life only to be told to go back. That's a slap in the face for sure. Pre-deployments are straight-up awful. I'm usually ready for Spouse to go because he's so busy and stressed it's like part of him is already gone. Hang on, be strong and focus on you for a bit.

Stephanie Solis said...

I'm sorry you are going through this as i was going through this earlier. stay positive and do things for yourself in the time being and believe me things will work out for the best.