I am over this. I am over everything in my life. How can my life go from perfect to completely ruined in a matter of days. I have not one thing to live for anymore. Everyone says myself, but I don't feel like that even matters anymore. Found out I can't get my financial aid now because apparently you have to complete so many credit hours for which you enroll. Well lucky me had to withdraw from this quarter, so there goes a wasted 15 credits and now because of that I am no longer elgible for financial aid. This list of bullshit, miserableness just keeps getting worse. I still have no job. The one person who can even make this remotely a little bit better, won't. Because he just wants to be a whore and fuck anyone and everyone. My whole world has literally been shattered. Nothing is right. So therefore I'm done. I am throwing in the towel. I don't know when it will happen, but I don't have a desire to live anymore. Everyone thinks I am this incredibly strong person, and at times I am, but maybe I hit my low point. I hit my point of not caring about life anymore. I hit my point of not having a reason to exist anymore.
I love you more than anything JRB